feeling qt sad now... had a chat with rena last night... and sorta with dex now abt the same thing. i wish i could distance myself so it wun hurt so much. i mean i know that its not like they are not trying its just me lah... i understand y gobind was so upset the last time... he lost his two closest frens in class too... i think sometimes i put on an act when im in sch... like im so mad and bimbotic but im not. and i dunno y i must sometimes the pple arnd me hu are supposed to be my closest and dearest frens really piss me off... but tts normal i think... i miss my mg frens so much. sometimes they frusttrate me too when they dun reply my msgs and stuff but when they do its like really great i dunno lah i wish i din have to grow up... wish i could just start jc again... wad i would do is keep to myself and be a non descipt person liek marcus... hes right u noe... if u dun allow urself to get close to pple then they wun hurt you. wish i could have done that... i wish i could talk abt this to them but i dun think they would understand... it would just be wad they said to gobind abt how well when u get in a relationship things change and stuff... maybe im jealous of them haha. dun think so tho... think im just lonely.

ok anyway thats qt depressing... but today was rather depressing actually haha... started off with chem... and well... its chem. nuff said. den trg was terrible cos i ate nasi lemak b4 trg and coconut milk is NOT good with trg... and my arms felt like dead weights ok... sighz. den after tt went to parkway with ed and zy and angele... tt part was ok lah haha... they are a crappy lot... esp angele the evil :p den went church for the scripture memory quiz and u noe... its qt sad cos its supposed to be a good thing to learn scripture and the memorize it but to see the way some pple get so worked up over it is like.... wierd. i dunno... guys lah too competitve and ego... and now i think daryl thinks im a super wierd and high person haha... but he really looked SUPER stressed out! was just trying to cheer him up! anyway we are thru to the finals... in a very i dunno... bitter way? like in suck acrimonious circumstances... den joy went for her "audition" tt became a rehersal and i sat in for fun... got alot of things i think abt it but i dun think ill say lah... like i think the cast is qt good tho :) can see they got talent... den me and joy went for dinner haha... and now im back! hmm... seems like the judges are getting alot of flak for their roles in the quiz tho... i dun want their job man... but hey i think tt they are really trying their best and its their first time so we shld give them a break ya...

anyway im qt pissy today lah.